Tribute to all those who added color to me !!

....So as the color of pencils..We all are close frens, we all are blessed ones..hard earned frens!! Right from school in FIFO ..Each color has its value and so are all of us..
Dhivya..Suganya..Sowki..Anusuya..Jayanthi..Gaya3..Sarada..Sathish..Vidya..Smrithi..geetha..priya..sylvia..Hema vasumathi..vimal..Drishya..Neha..Lakshmi..Sridhurga..sindhu..Sumi..Christine..Arthi..Mary..Susan.
padhma..valarmathy..Subhapriya..
And many many more..

Awwww!! M sure i hav left many names..Sorry;( buddies excuse me for tat..There are loads n lots of frens more..Some pencils, some colors still remains..some shaded..some faded..But All have a definite place in my heart for them,you are real special ones and here is a chance to thank each one of you to give a colorful meaning to my life!! Yes..You added color to my life!!!



Friends are honest..Friends are True..Friends are precious..

Thank you in loads to all my colors to create this beautiful rainbow!!


Life ends; when you stop Dreaming,
Hope ends; when you stop Believing,
Love ends; when you stop Caring,
And Friendship ends; when you stop Sharing...!!!

"Enakena oru thuyar vandhalum,
thanakena adhai ninakindra nanmbargalai epavume pathuka Allah!!"

I Miss you More than I thought it was possible....

I want to hold your hands & walk a mile
Don’t want to Miss you even a while My life is so beautiful,cuz Dear Its you..My life!
Call me for my worries to Die..
My tears to Dry
My loneliness to fly
It hurts me to know How I can be selfish wen it comes to you

I miss you at every moment of the day,
I keep me awake jus to listen to you
I keep me alive jus to Live with you
My Mornings seeks you
My evenings Miss you
Where were you all these years??
Y u weren there to wipe my tears
Fear of future is worse than the pain of past
Still I bother the least,cuz u are der

Even seconds are too long to miss you
I want to hold your hands & walk a mile
Don’t want to Miss you even a while

--Nice poem by someone..

Coromendal Fishers!! Ever Loving Poem

Coromandal Fishers by Sarojini Naidu..

Rise, brothers, rise; the wakening skies pray to the morning light,

The wind lies asleep in the arms of the dawn like a child that has cried all night.

Come, let us gather our nets from the shore and set our catamarans free,

To capture the leaping wealth of the tide, for we are the kings of the sea!

No longer delay, let us hasten away in the track of the sea gull's call,

The sea is our mother, the cloud is our brother, the waves are our comrades all.

What though we toss at the fall of the sun where the hand of the sea-god drives?

He who holds the storm by the hair, will hide in his breast our lives.


Sweet is the shade of the cocoanut glade, and the scent of the mango grove,

And sweet are the sands at the full o' the moon with the sound of the voices we love;

But sweeter, O brothers, the kiss of the spray and the dance of the wild foam's glee;

Row, brothers, row to the edge of the verge, where the low sky mates with the sea.

I rememb this moment..How I got district first in English tho I havent educated in a matric school..State board..I got inspired by this poem-- Her words made my imaginary lines wide opened..Wot i thought n practised in English and today I m able to write cuz of this inspiration to this poem and my english Miss shobana ..

Thanks Sarojini Madam for such a beautiful song..I learnt this as a school poem in my X std..I had a Vivid Imagination of how a Fishermen life would be,the sun, catamaran,waves,fishery culture,their relationship to sea god has brought out wellI had a picture..Guess!! Anybody would have imagined like me..A well knit, crisp and precise poem

Picture Still stays with me..Hats off Madam!! This is my favourite poem ever!!

Life-- A Definition in ARosewhispers!!

Where are these clouds moving??? TO kiss the ocean?...But they are in love with the shore!---Tressy


About me ..

My personality trait is the courage of conviction and power in words. A born Fighter-means problems all the way,accepting challenges on my way rite from silly to hard with the blessings of magamaye.I like my Attitude and the way I carry myself.I had never compromised on my moral values.Girl Next Door to you..tats me!! Wants to be as Simple, Down to earth, Approachable, Smiling, Cheerful as always. If you give 1% Care to her, rose is ready to give 100% in return to you..provided u shuld be true to her.. She is like the fragrance a flower gives after it’s been stepped on.

1.How good I live my life?

Guess,God has blessed me to live the fullest Life!! Living in my own way..She has given time
for everythin..to work..to play..to keep in touch wit frens..to serve the needy..to go to temples..even time to blogg here!!..God always gave me chances to explore both the extremes..so tat my success n failure are balanced..

I have got placed very early at my 16yrs in Midas communcition Technologies..On the other hand was searchin for job..cryin dyin for job wen i was at 21..

I have been the autonomous topper,also i had an arrear in a maths paper for 8attempts..I kno a feelin of a person who has arrear now..

I worked as a Faculty in CSC..where I earned my first pay for 1500..its still precious to me..n now much much more..

I hav travelled in unreserved coach in train.on other hand in AC's as well..

I was at my home as a half-house wife wen my mom was away..Also I work in corporate now..Both are extremes of a life..

Want to switch off AC or awy from other pleasures as I shuld be able to be ready wen I m left out with these pleasures..

I had my degree in a town..wer i experienced how a village studyin atmosphere be..wer as had my UG degree in leadin engg coll chennai..both the cultures are extremely different.people attitude all are different..

Most cruel hospital days to enjoyment in citycentre..

I have earned very true best frens..Hard earned..really really caring frens..Blessed to hav them so..God Has blessed me with gud life!! M thankful to her..decent pay,gud intelligence,energy to walk a lot,managable looks wot not..i hav a Contented life!!..Many wont get such life..M satisfied..Its peaceful sometimes tho its miserable..God has blessed in abundant..interesting challenges!! great goin..Sometimes its miserable as problems are common to al in world even to ants!!

2.Am I proud of myself?

Oscar winner AR Rehman kooda "Ella pughazum Iraivanukey" God Is great nu he has told..My death Bed taught me not to take anythin to head as god gives everything nothing is done by us..

3.Has anything interesting happened?
Loads of interesting stuffs..sometimes funny sometimes serious..Sometimes sily to major..

4.Whats is my contribution to the society?
Hmmm ;( not much as of now..stil lots to do..

5.Where have I reached with my dreams?
Tryin to make my dream come true..Hmm lets c..God has put in a mystical state wer I have to prove myself..So long way to go..Waiting for the right time to come..Hope it wuld come oneday in a mist morning or cool nite!! who knos!!

6.What are you crazy about?
Amman Temples..Want to grow fish in a smal tank..my unfulfilled desire ;(..my samsung J600 is gettin older..gotto change..no budjet!!
songs anytime..dress fleek!!beauty concious!!being humorous(admire someone for humour)
corner seat travel..frens!!
googling..googling..love to do it..since i was in sales..done market research..it became a habit to me..guess its a gud habit tho..able to learn a lot..
crazy bout my dream guy to meet him..talk to him..tho its far..yet near!!

7.Am I still waiting for something to come in my way? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm how long I hav to long like this!! no clue!! God shuld open her mercy eyes on me..Gues she wil..she knos which time on wot to giv it to me..

8.Do I miss something/someone?
yes I am.. each moment..

9.How good is my career?
Fine..but not fine always..Not consistent to me..tats makin me worry!!

10.A thought : "Service to Human is service to God"..If you are not able to be a prayin lip, No issues be a helping hand..Its in a Poor smile wer really God Lives!!

My Hospital Hell dayzzzzzzzz!!

Folks, I am Penning my unforgettable Hell Hospital days..I m sure each one of us wuld hav a time to hospital bed in our life time..Health is Wealth..

2yrs back..I had severe headache for 2months..n light fever.I ignored..My mom was away to abroad..I was a half house-wife then for 1yr ;(..I dont want my dad to strain for this..I was holding this pain..

On a fine wednesday mrn, tat was Feb end..I vomitted and fainted down..I was hospitalized with acute appendicities..Tat lady doc looked like Devil to me wen she told I need to be operated immed otherwise it wuld burst n i wuld die in few hours time..I cried since My mom was missing..My dad didn kno wot to do..

It was me told boldly "Yes Doctor I am ready" You can do anything with me....doc was suprised with this immed ans..She said Good..

First nite to spend in hospital..witout mom..alone..I was the only patient was alone for the entire ward..Glucose keeps injectin to me in one hand..I need to manage tat even to go to rest room i need to carry with me..very difficult it was..witout my mom..I cried from heart..but decided to be more n more stronger..nothin can affect me..i hav magamaye pic with me..She is with me..I kept telling to me..

Whole nite i was chanting magamaye n slept.tat was feb 27th my operation day..Since i was under-weight docs had a major discussion whthr to operate me or not..finally it was decided..i hav to otherwise i would harldy hav chances to live..

I made my mind..wot ever happens I shuld be smiling..i m not goin to show my pain to my appa..nor on cal to my amma..I dont want to make them also scared..Was ready to face it..

I was taken inside opn theatre..I had the anesthesia injection at the backbone..Cried out..It started painin my ful back very very badly..After sometime..I was half concious..I constantly said magamaye magamaye..Docs told me later!!..Pain was bad..it was 10mins..Operation was fine for them..Not for me..I was brought out of the theatre..I made my mind wen my mom on cal..i shuld say m well!!smiling..tat was really tuf which i was not able to..i gathered my tot strength..i told my dad..appa m very fine..m good..As expected my mom on call..I told m fine amma..not at all paining..laughinly i said..They took me to ICU..

ICU so called HELL!!
Since i was underweight..Post surgery criticality I had..My body doesn able to tolerate tat opn..One hand glucose..one hand is numb..half of the body is numb..I started suffocating..i culdn breathe..I wanted to call the doc/nurse..nobody around..I cant even rise my hands to call..cant shout..no energy..My voice was goin in and in..I cant breathe..i was struggling..tats my DEATH BED time!!..I kno m goin to die in few seconds..I had a last wish..i had my mom's image..i missed her wanted to see her..had tears comin down from eyes..Then secondly my thought was the person who betrayed me..i prayed..god na ilama how can he live..i hav occupied his heart fully..wil he balance my absence..I prayed god he shuld get a better better gal than me..He shuld get a gud job..b4 the few seconds of my death fear..These ran in my mind..I culd rememb the apprenties gals who work under nurse ran to me..gave oxygen..closed me with kambli..My last word was magamaye..I closed my eyes..

Mrn I awoke!! wot? Am I alive still?? Thanked my magamaye..Yes she proved tat she is with me again!! I wanted to speak tat betrayed person immed..but inside ICU not allowed rite..

Since i am a critical patient i was under observation..I made frens there inside ICU,my next bed aunty..a smal gal..a paati..all are my frens..we shared a lot in the mrn..the tablets..the prickin injections..For the first time..my beauty attitude n educated feeling n al flew away..i was jus a simple gal other human "ME"..I learnt this is life!! wot attitude we hav will end at our death bed..from that day til now I m selfless!! My death bed taught how to behave with others..Life is very short spread love n kindness..n wen we die is wot the count around us..is the gud life we lived..My ICU Days are really preaching to me how shuld become..how i shuld potray me..Its a projector..

I stayed in hospital for 15days..Witout my mom I was alone gettin food,goin to rest room..it was the heights of loneliness even my enemy shuld not have..tuf time..I faced it cuz my magamaye was with me instead of mom..she gave the courage to me..Wen I came..I made loads of frens..Many liked me..I was the darling der..Rite from docs to patients n workers there..I bent down n fal on to the legs of the person who kept the basin for me..She cried and I cried..It was emotional..Still wanted to thank her..Thanks Akka!!Thanks in loads..Its makin me cry even more..

Mystery Is Chennai!!!

hmmmmmmm Chennai..Heavenly place for those who afford money to a lux living..Miserable one for the poor..I don't belong to both the category..Its so called "MIDDLE CLASS"..I came from a well established town downsouth..I was born in chennai.My relatives are here only in chennai..For each school holidays chennai is our hangout place holiday spot!!..For Tiny one like me Chennai is a Giant..Chennai is a Magic..I used to wonder gazing at the MALLS,RESTAURENTS,HUGE BUILDINGS,THE BEACHES,mulaga bujji,Kulfi,CINEMA THEATRES..Awesome fantasy!! On the other hand Cheaters,Pollution,Noise,Traffic,Dirty,Crowd ,Queue always were ever n for wotever..If you are punished in your prebirth you wuld hav travelled in City Buses around 6pm..Its a bane ;( Fruits of being a middle class..

I have a horrible experience many times travelling alone in chennai..76C those days that was the only bus ply in tat route..for 1hr only one bus service tat too for gettin down at sripe, conductor would give a nasty look at me as 76c is exclusively for kanchipuram..{Heart felt Thanks to Govt now many buses ply on tat route!!}

Got to stand only even if seats are vacant!! Chennai is Bane!! Being a gal travelling in 76c with cheapskates..Oh my god..Its a cruel punishment of god to middle class society..I am jus representing a mid class gal..The way those wickedguys touch..pinch..horrible horrible..Hate those times..

Even now..Recently I felt like slappin a guy who touched my lap wen m gettin down from share auto..We are not able to afford money to catch an auto/taxi..nor hav time to wait for bus..Dont he have a sister or mother at home?

This share auto,bus,train travel teach me a lot..Wot kinda people they are..Once der was a guy sittin right down to me..he was leaning to my legs..as auto was ful crowded i cant tel him to take his head also..i was tolerating him to the core..after a stop, many got down..but that crooked fellow was leaning then..I asked him to sit properly..but he didn..I felt like cryin..Thank god the guy who sat next to me fought with him n he got down..I thanked the samaritan!! There are stil Gud people in chennai!!

Folks say, The place were we get settle is our place..Chennai is such a place for me..I came to chennai at my 2nd yr of UG n stil here..Chennai has taught this simple town gal a lot..Style fantasy..English attitude everything is a problem for me..Money spoke a lot..Money gained respect here, which is totally new to me..I am against this..I took only positive things frm chennai's teachings..One of the strongest achievement my chennai life gave to me is the communication,ablity to face people,interacting with many kinds of people in a day to day life,rite from flower seller to mulaga bajji..How to bargain in pondy bazzar,how to talk to auto walas.."ENGLISH" is a magic to me before..Its the attitude chennai gave me..Its the gud stylish decent dressing sense chennai life gave me..Thank you Chennai..Chennai is a bed of roses to whom they doesn care about anything!! Humanity means a lot to me wer here is hardly in place of crowd..Despite of all this I still Love you Chennai!! Life is here,Passion is here..tats METROPOLITAN!!

High Lites of Chennai:
1.World's second longest beach-Marina..( neatly maintained by recent Govt measures -hats off!)
2.Asia Biggest Bus stand(5000)-CMBT (built by prev Govt) u culd find both the politicians pic board hanging :)
3.Asia's biggest Hospital-G.H (Corruption inside--everythin is money)
4.Safest Metro to live in,City with Maximum temples
5.Indians No:1 Arts college Loyala.
6.Double Oscar Winner Mozzart of India,AR Rehman lives here in Suburayan Nagar.
7.Hot Spots:Marina,Bessi,Thiruvanmayur,ECR beaches,Spencers,City Centre,Mayajaal and one more built in Aminjkarai recently,sorry i dont kno the name ;(
Ever rocking Satyam,Inox,IIT!!
Loads of temple which is close to my heart,sub-urban train,AC Buses..21H,19B specially!!Adyar Cancer Institute.Also Besant Nagar Mary Church..I m sure I missed lots n lots..

My Goddess and Me!!

Why to believe in God??

"There are some Questions Which Google Cant Answer"

MINE IS A POLYTHEISTS FAMILY
I hardly rememb wen do I exactly started loving my amman..During my early days of childhood I have followed my mom who prays sincerly, being my dad a pakka GODDESS lover..Grown up in such a family..I prayed as a duty not with interest..During exam times as other kids I too pray to get gud marks..Gud frens..Gud rank..etc etc..But later on gradually I believed in Jesus wer I happen to study in a convent school..Prayin means askin something to god tat was my conception tat time..tho misconception tho :).. During my 4th std..I prayed sincerely to get gud marks..almost i started catchin up to temple daily with hear to get my dream 1st Rank..I go to Perumal temple and adhiparashakthi temple nearby home..

MY FIRST LOVE ON GODDESS
For the First time I liked thayar sanidhi in perumal temple n started prayin as my ishta deivam..Wot ever problems i hav i report to her :) Tat was my first likin for a god...My first love was reported to her at the age of 9..cant believ rite!!
My High school is very much on to GOD..lucky tat I was brought up der excluding the unwanted restictions like a slave ;(..My High school made a channel to my God Belief..We hav continuous MI(Moral Instruction),Music bajan classes..Wer they teach only moral values,God,Gud deeds..We had a prayer hall called Main Hall were we hav all God's Statue..In tat big Samayapuram Mariamman statue always attracted me..n made me sit n study der even after school hours..I used to make funny prayers like if i get 4th rank i l kottify in front of magamaye 20times in hand to floor..N its funniest wen I do it wen i actually get the same rank :)..n i started believing rite from tat day my goddess is listening to my prayers n so still.................

IYAPPAN SANTHOSHIMADHA AMMAN and ME:
During my diploma times,our house got shifted near an iyappan temple.wer i daily go..n rush to get the water they spray after each evening pooja..m a crazy fan for it...I l never miss tat..Aiyappan became my second ishta deivam for me..hmmm..These are the sparks for me to love god..but actually i started prayin sincerely wen i saw Santhoshi Madha Amman for the first time..i started puttin my pains to her..It was a great relaxation goin n burderning her with my pains to her :)..

IN MY DREAMS, MY LADYLOVE GOD CAME..
Its still an fantastic moment..der are many times wen GOD came in my dreams..Sriranga Ranganatha swamy,8Forms of Amman,Smiling Dhurgadevi,Periyapalayathamman came in my dream so far..

SAMAYAPURAM MAGAMAYE..
I started loving her during my coll days..Jus cuz i had the picture of her with me..Soon After With her Pic nearby I l sleep..Wen people were gettin recruited in bulks i was the exceptional poor one who was lost in crowd witout a job in hand..The most neglected..the most dejected times..I still rememb it was August 15th nite..Whole hostel was empty n I was sleepin with her pic next to my heart..I got a dream wer I saw Magamaye's legs alone with Golden Anklet and tats the time I asked her in my dream bout my repeatd failure to my job hunt..She told u hav touched my legs ders no more failure to u..I could sense something Gud gonna happen to me..It was August 23rd I was placed..n memorable day on my lifetime..
From then,She is close to my heart ever..I pray only her all the time.I feel she is with me listening to me..IF TRUST GODDESS TRUST HER FULLY..Tho dey were times wer my magamaye tested me..I still drive in her..n hav the confidence tat she is with me.My life is rolling on in her guidance..Wot I love n live is wot she gave!!!

PERIYAPALAYATHAMMAN...Wen i was Held up with loads of pressures..i need a outlet to come out of a betrayal..for tat I started diverting me towards service,work..but still i had time..i wanted to kill time..so wanna meditate..for tat the best place i chose is a temple in hotspot chennai(dont wanna mention)..Wer i need to travel to reach tat place..i loved tat travel..it killed my time..i m diverted cuz of travel..i started liking the temple and very soon it occupied in me..All my tears n pains are with her..i l take only sense of relaxation n smile from the temple back.
I have no clue y i pray her..but now i realize she took me to periyapalayam the place of her..she made me a devotee of her..he he :) true!! to the great extent she gav me the strength to hav a shoeless walk recently I hope u l fulfil my prayer soon..Thanks amma..I believe u are der with me and continue to support me always amma..Blessed i am one of the really lucky chores out of the mass.....

Note: Next post is der--click old post to find it..My Welcoming Post..Check in Blog Archive!!

My First Blog!!

Its clueless y I m here..Cuz my frens motivated me to write as I keep telling I m expressive thru words n not in person..I can write essays..I have so much to talk,but I cant open my mouth n talk to ppl as I wuld fear that my frens wuld mistake me..Only to my closest frens I wuld talk really non stop..otherwise opening up is really difficult..

I rememb my school times wher I wuld scare to appear on stage instead i l write my essays help ma frens out with poetrys , speeches,story writing..And I wuld be safe leaving my frens names from putting my name elsewere on stage..And Aplaud for them getting prizes from down..

And also I m thankful to my Fren Tressy, I was inspired by her blog to actually start with blogging..I think its a gud place to scribd the outlet of my emotions, as I m in a strange & difficult phase of life, which I cant show anywere else..Please excuse me for my grammatical Flaws and u r invited only if u accept the flaws and go forward..

Is this Blog a New hobby for me?? No Idea.But it feels Good where I am wot I am here!!